Gene Jean But Butt

Day 60

“I am so beautiful, sometimes people weep when they see me. And it has nothing to do with what I look like really, it is just that I gave myself the power to say that I am beautiful, and if I could do that, maybe there is hope for them too. And the great divide between the beautiful and the ugly will cease to be. Because we are all what we choose.”

– Margaret Cho

Today is a great day for me, it’s full of synchronicity and celebration. This day marks the completion of my second month of daily blogging on my Positivity 365 Project. It’s also leap day and that got me thinking about the past two leap years. As I reflect back over the last eight years, knowing now that my thoughts create my reality, I can see how I attracted the things I’ve experienced. There are so many different thoughts running through my head that I’m going to have to write about each one in a separate post in a series I’m calling Diamond Girl. Today, I will focus on the physical expression of beauty.

We live in a world that measures and judges beauty by a very narrow yardstick. It’s easy to accept society’s impossible ideals of beauty as your own beliefs without even realizing it. Once that happens, you start to judge your appearance against society’s yardstick, and your thoughts about your appearance will inevitably manifest in your physical form – your subconscious is always listening, waiting to fulfill your wishes based on your thoughts.

Thoughts create things. All things. Including your physical appearance. Literally. The universe responds by manifesting your thoughts.

It’s “Motivation Monday” and today’s feature image is motivating me to be my best physical self. You see, that image is of me. Last week I commissioned a drawing of myself from a stranger who has never met me before and knows nothing about me at all, except that I want this piece of art work done. When I saw the final rendering yesterday, at first glance, I didn’t think it looked like me, but the more I looked at it, the more I saw bits of myself – yes, that’s my nose, my eyes, my lips…but still, it wasn’t quite the me I see in the mirror. Skeptical, I compared it to several pictures of myself, and found that the drawing does, in fact, look exactly like me. It is me, through the eyes of a stranger. A stranger who has no underlying beliefs – conscious or subconscious about who I am, and therefore has not put me into any mental boxes. The girl in the picture is beautiful. Shocking. Hmm.

On this day eight years ago, I saw the girl in the picture in my mirror, but that’s not who I see in the mirror today. How did I stop seeing myself as the girl in the picture? By my thoughts. I’ve been telling the girl in the picture stories about what’s wrong with her appearance because I accepted others’ opinions of myself, and I internalized their beliefs until they became my beliefs, and then my outer appearance began to reflect my new beliefs. I’ve physically changed my appearance with my thoughts.

When you tell yourself stories about how you look, the universe goes to work to fulfill your wish because your thoughts are how you communicate your wishes to the universe. So if you tell yourself how ugly or fat you are, the universe says here’s your fat and ugly, and if you tell yourself you are beautiful just the way you are, the universe says here you go, beautiful.

I’ve always been curvy, and no, that’s not code for fat, it’s literal for having curves, like women are supposed to have. I had the Kardashian butt before Kim was even born. Who knew 20 years later people would be paying to enhance their asses to look like the one I’ve spent my life trying to get rid of. It’s in my genes, I can’t change my shape. Over the last eight years, I have subconsciously accepted the belief that I am too big because that’s what people told me, and I believed them. I stopped fitting into my jeans and accepted all the buts about my butt. But if you lost a bit of weight, you’d be more attractive. But you look fat in those jeans. But you should workout more. When I look at pictures of myself from 2008 and 2012, I think my body was perfect just the way it was.

Upon reflection, I know that my belief that I am fat created weight gain, and my belief that beauty fades with age has caused subtle changes in my features. So now, I’m experiencing the manifestation of my thoughts and beliefs, and I no longer look or feel like the girl in the picture. Now that I am aware of how I created my physical reality, I can work on changing my beliefs. Once I believe that I look like the girl in the picture again, no doubt, she will return to the reflection in my mirror.

Listen. No one can shape or affect your reality without your permission.

Just pause and let that sentence really soak in.

If someone believes you to be or look a certain way, it can only affect you if you accept their image of you. If you don’t accept it, that image will reflect back on them and they will attract whatever they’re thinking.

So, if someone thinks you’re ugly, and you don’t accept that opinion of yourself, they will end up attracting ugliness to themselves. Buyer beware – it works both ways, so focus on yourself and don’t project negativity onto others ’cause it might just bite you in the butt! Better to work on seeing your own butt just the way you want it!

Give yourself the power to see yourself in your best image. I am.

Thank you, thank you, thank you!