“Intuition goes before you, showing you the way. Emotion follows behind, to let you know when you go astray. Listen to your inner voice. It is the calling of your spiritual GPS system seeking to keep you on track towards your true destiny.”
– Anthon St. Maarten
I woke up this morning with the seemingly out-of-the-blue memory of an award I received in Grade 6. I’ve been having a lot of “random” memories pop up lately, and I know that when an old experience comes to the surface unexpectedly, it’s usually an opportunity to heal a limiting belief related to an unresolved event that’s blocking your energy flow.
Limiting beliefs naturally come to the surface when they are blocking a desire from manifesting. The memories present an opportunity to clear the blocks, and let go of the meaning we attached to the experiences in order to move towards our desired future.
You see, I’m experiencing the privileged condition of not having any issues in my life right now because of all the positive thinking I’ve been doing for the past several months. So now, I am working on manifesting some of my desires by focusing my attention on those goals in imagination and in action, and the Universe is responding – I’m starting to see the first blossoms of my desires becoming a reality.
I have been thinking from my wish fulfilled instead of thinking of my wish fulfilled, so my subconscious is bringing up thoughts and beliefs that are not congruent with my new reality and saying, ‘hey, look what you’ve got hidden in here, get rid of this, it doesn’t fit, and it’s in the way of getting to where you want to go.’ It’s like opening a vegan bakery and then negotiating with the local dairy farmer for your ingredients – you have to change your recipes, and let go of the foods that no longer fit your vision.
“We must be willing to get rid of the life we’ve planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us. The old skin has to be shed before the new one can come.”
– Joseph Campbell
Back to my memory – I received an award for most improved student, which I was not pleased about, to say the least. First off, to me, most improved implied that I wasn’t doing well to begin with, and that was not the case. My grades were always good. I got A’s in the achievement column, and C’s and D’s in the effort column on my report cards – I didn’t see this as an issue at the time – what would happen if I tried? My grades couldn’t get any better anyway.
The awards ceremony was a big deal, as I later found out. Parents of the award recipients were invited, mine included. Having just moved across the country, this was a new school, and I had no clue about the year-end awards assembly prior to being called on stage to receive mine. I had been sitting with my friends in the auditorium, oblivious to the fact that my parents were even there. When they announced the next award for the most improved student, my friends (I use the term loosely), expected it to go to another girl in our class, and were demonstrably disappointed when I got it. Of course, their reaction made me feel bad, ashamed and not proud of my achievement.
Looking back, I can see that this experience taught my 10-year old self that accolades and achievement meant not being liked, not fitting in, and being recognized for excellence causes people to be upset with me. You know what my 10-year old subconscious did? It went to work to protect me from similar experiences in the future by blocking me from reaching my full potential – I am always successful with any endeavor I pursue, just like my grades, but I don’t reach the level of success I am capable of.
Now I see that’s where the improvement was, in my desire to excel. I actually didn’t make the connection until now as I write this – my teacher saw that I wasn’t using my full potential (as many teachers throughout high school would later tell me) because I was afraid of not fitting in.
All those comments on my report cards saying I wasn’t using my full potential were from really good teachers who were trying to get me to let my light shine.
Talk about an aha moment. Ok, so this is clearing old crap in real time, and you’re right here with me. It’s clear why this memory popped up today. I’m ready to manifest a desire that will require me to be all that I can be, and this belief has got to go, so my new reality can take birth.
Buh-bye tired old belief that is not true, does not serve me, and I’m happy to get rid of!
When you start to believe that you have can be, do and have anything you desire, and you start to live in your wish fulfilled, your subconscious will bring forth blocks in the form of dreams, memories, and conflicts. Don’t dismiss them. Take some time to think about why the old experience came to the surface, and see it as an opportunity to get rid of old programming that no longer serves you.
“Inner guidance is heard like soft music in the night by those who have learned to listen.”
– Vernon Howard
Be mindful of seemingly random thoughts that pop up – they’re your inner guidance steering you into your fabulous future!
Thank you, thank you, thank you!